Showing posts with label solitude. Show all posts
Showing posts with label solitude. Show all posts

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Translucent solitude

The quiet. It soothed her and comforted her. It made her ruminate. It made her feel alive. It made her forget all the trivial noises of the humdrum- the kids, the sounds of the metropolitan traffic, the radio, the hiss of the cooker, the blaring calls of the street vendors and innumerable ringtones.
The gloomy night sky hazily diffused the milky white translucence.  She could feel the night sinking, the dark intensifying, one minute after another, making the stars shine brighter. Gazing into the atmospheric infinity, sipping the cool of the night breeze and cuddling into her own blanket, she closed her eyes for a while and sighed in tranquility.


He faced the sky with her, holding her in a light embrace. They were lying down on the terrace on the same bed, under the same blanket, but didn’t face each other. It was what she wanted- for them both to gaze at the sky. Together. Quietly. 


                                               


He enjoyed the subtle warmth of the places where her skin touched his. He felt it bizarre how the sensation of her breath on his arm made him so calmly erotic. His mind started to cherry-pick the moments of their courtship that eventually deepened into their moments of marriage. Dizzy smiles came and went.

He had sensed that she felt inexplicably lost lately. The routine had dulled her. She’d started to feel fatigued even after sleeping a good ten hours. She’d lose her way into an abyss, in the middle of a conversation. She’d burn the rice. She’d forget to put things in the refrigerator. She’d sometimes sit up in the middle of the night, just to check on the lights and locks. And the week before, she made him coffee, twice in ten minutes. He didn’t say a word but sipped it down. She cleared the cups and took them to the sink and she knew. She closed her eyes in disbelief. He notified at work about his absence.

“I need a break”, she said.

“I know.”

They were almost at sunrise now, without a word uttered. The bluish hue of the dawn and the hovering songs of early birds. He remembered the time when he’d asked her out of curiosity, why she’d chosen him.

“You’re good company. And you’re a quiet guy”, she’d said.

Back then, he thought it was just an explanation, but it wasn’t long before he’d realized she was a quiet one too. There were times when they were up talking all night. And there were times that they drove together in the car with hardly any words throughout. Except a brief period in courtship, he had never felt the urgency to talk to her. She inherently beamed an easy sense of reassurance. He smiled at the queer difference in who she was from every other woman he ever knew, and dozed into sleep.
She’d slept briefly. It felt good to wake up to the mild rays of the sun. She stretched heartily and turned to look at him, finding him in a deep sleep. She freshened up, grabbed a piece of paper, wrote a note and tiptoed out.

He woke up to the emptiness beside him, only to find a note tucked beside the bed.

Hey,
I made coffee.
It feels amazing to realize that I don’t have to get away from you to be alone.
Thank you.
PS: The sun was good, and I sneaked out for a quick run. Can’t wait to see you!

He blushed and sat up to the shining sun, liberally gulping the aromatic coffee happiness.   



Monday, December 30, 2013

All those little things..!



Do yourself a favor,
with a few little things.
Collect a little flavor,
That'll never cost you shillings.

Giggle away with your best mates,
Run out of those closed gates,
Give yourself that fresh air,
That swing, that shower, and that relaxing chair.






Do yourself a favor,
And sit down for a while.
Let your lips play the trick
and curve that joyful smile.


Look at those clouds and daydream.
Blush away with a bright beam.
Sing to yourself that happy song,
You always wanted to sing.




Stare at the moon on those lonely nights,
Humming those tunes of the retro.
Look down from those stunning heights,
Into lights of the gloomy metro.


Spread your hands to the rain,
Do that silly dance.
Open up with those groovy moves,
Like there's never a second chance.


Do yourself that favor,
with all those little things,
Grab every one of those little joys,
That life so luckily brings.


                                            

Friday, November 2, 2012

Solitude


It’s bliss,

When all you have is yourself to talk to,

And listen to.

It’s relieving,

To put down the masks you wear all the time,

To be yourself without pretense or mime.

It’s essential,

To sort out the whispering inner voices,

To prioritize and make your final choices.

It’s fulfilling,

To rediscover your abilities and strengths,

And prepare for going long lengths.

It’s liberating

To bring out the ripple effect of long lost joy,

Withdrawing yourself from reality and decoy.

It’s crucial,

To revisit your mistakes and flaws,

To live for your people and to live by the laws.

Sometimes there is a deep need,

To be there and be alone.

To gather yourself with a strong tone.

To take your life to your own altitude,

And savor the solace of solitude.